feelings

I'm feeling very lonely at this particular time of my life.
I feel the only light i have is my family, cause i feel i haven't done anything to pursue my dreams.
I feel love does not exist, that is a lie and you can not found it, because you never meet completely someone's life.
I feel that everyone can betray you, and that there's is nothing pure in people souls.
I feel God wants to help me but i just turn around my face and ignore the help.
Sometimes i feel, that im stuck and I have nothing else but what this overwhelming life brings to me.
I'm desperate, sad, hopeless...